My 2013 began on such an amazing high. I got a full-time job at an amazing school. I began wedding plans for the following fall and my brother also got engaged! Overall for the first month or so I was on a 2013 high. Resolutions were coming true and life was beginning to take flight. I know life is full of ups and downs and I truly believe that is what keeps us interested, but 2013 has brought on too many lows.
The first call I received was that my Grandfather had passed, this was sad news, but he had been sick for several years and I felt he could now rest in peace after enjoying a full and wonderful life.
The next call I received was from a friend saying her Mom had passed away. This was truly shocking and I never thought I would have to be there for a friend in this way at our age. After being strong and stepping up as a friend I thought things could move forward. However it is 2013, I guess this isn’t my year. Only a few days later I found out that both my Father and Grandmother had cancer.
At this point I was actually thankful to be bombarded at work so I wouldn’t have to deal with my personal life. When I thought I could start getting back to normal, I found out that a coworker and former teacher passed away. Just like my friends mum this was totally unexpected and out of the blue. I was in a state of disbelief.
I wrote this post (or began writing this post) almost a month ago. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to post it. I just needed to write everything that had happened down. When I confided with friends I sometimes felt like I was making up this huge tale. How could all of this possibly happen in a span of 5-6 months.
Since starting this post, my father passed peacefully in his sleep after spending his last few weeks in a hospice in Cambridge. Despite everything I am okay. I am moving forward. I have so much to look forward to. I am just glad that 2013 will be coming to a close soon. I know 2014 will be looking up.
Until next time day dreamers.
* I don’t typically write about my personal life (other than light everyday stuff), but my heart has been truly heavy in the past few months and I needed to write down a few thoughts. I am focused on healing and moving forward and other than this post, my future (hopefully more frequent) posts will reflect this.