Currently I am sitting at my kitchen table procrastinating from life. I have a workout session that I need to do before my day officially begins (yes I know it’s practically lunch hour), my kitchen looks like I cooked a gourmet meal for 10 people, and I have a stack of laundry up the wazoo.
This last year has been interesting for me. I am officially off of maternity leave, but I did not return to work. I put in a solid 6 months of apply for jobs locally with nothing but failed interviews. All the while I was also starting up my own business and as of January decided to focus all of my energy there.
Maybe it’s because I am going through a slow period (lots of clients on vacation, potential leads are likely also on holidays not looking for trainers). So I sit here thinking… what am I doing? On most days I like to think of myself as a headstrong business owner trying to make a living doing what I love. Then on other days (often when I can’t get myself to focus) I think… am I just unemployed hanging out at my house pretending to be retired at 29?
I have a lot of time to think about life. My choices. Work. Bennett. Everything.
I will go to job boards sometimes and look at event jobs, but all I can think is about how the insane stress in my life from that world is gone, how could I do back to that? So I press on, I have to get out there, online, in person (how do I do that???). Training is my happy place. I am not ready to give up that dream.
And on that note… I am officially ready for the sun to come back out now!
Until next time day dreamers.