I find it interesting that such a short moment in time can have such a huge impact on your life. This goes for just about anything, a split decision we make that changes the course of your day/month/year. That decision might improve your day or make it horrible, but it was one short moment that got you there.
For me this moment was back in May when I broke my wrist. I can’t explain why it happened or exactly how it happened, but I did learn that bones can break even when we try our best to be careful. I was in denial up until the moment they put me under to set my wrist, there was no way at 27 (just days shy of my 28th birthday) I could possibly break my first bone ever. I have played sports since I was a kid, I have fallen and slipped. Why now?
Like I said, it was just a short moment in time, but one that even today has had a lasting impact. Once you lose function of something, you realize how important (and insanely amazing) a functioning body is. My doctor was hopeful that I would get back to 95% use of my wrist. I believe him. I am not even close to being there, but I still believe him.
6 months later, I am still in recovery mode. I have full use of my hand, but my mobility in my wrist is mediocre at best. I do all of my everyday things, cooking, cleaning, writing, typing, so why am I hear talking about moments in time that change your life. It all comes back to CrossFit. I have never been so committed and involved in one sport. I used to filter in and out of gym memberships, on and off of teams, but CrossFit was 5-6 times a week for 2 and a half years, including 8 months of my pregnancy. So did my life change. Yes. I have days where I think I will never lift anything significant over my head again, swing a kettle bell without pain or even do something as simple as a push up.
I still identify myself as a CrossFitter, even though I haven’t been to a box in 6 months or really done what I would consider a CrossFit workout. My life has had spurts of running, one-armed kettle bell lifts and attempts at planks and push ups, but my mental game has been crushed almost as badly as my wrist.
So what do I do to improve this. Continue with physiotherapy, long hikes with my dog to improve mental health and telling myself everyday that I will get there. I will lift again. Just give yourself time. Don’t give up.